Once upon a time I could control myself
Once upon a time I could lose myself
Once upon a time I could love myself
Once upon a time I could love myself
Once
Once
Once
Even flow
thoughts arrive like butterflies
Oh, he don't know
So he chases them away
Someday yet he'll begin his life again
Life againn
Kneelin', looking through the paper though he doesn't know to read
Prayin', now to something that has never showed him anything
Oh, feelin', understands the weather or that winters on its way, yeah
Oh, ceilins people fall between all the legal halls of shame
Even flow
Thoughts arrive like butterflies
Oh, he don't know
So he chases them away
Someday yet he'll begin his life again
Whispering hands, carry him away
Him away, him away
Yeah!
Woo
Oh yeah yeah
While you were sittin'
Home alone at age thirteen
Your real daddy was dyin'
Sorry you didn't see him
But I'm glad we talked...
I...I...I'm still alive
I...I...I'm still alive
I...I...I'm still alive
Oh she walks slowly
Across a young man's room
She said I'm ready...for you
I can't remember anything
To this very day
'cept the look...the look...
Now I can't see,...I just stare...
I...I...I'm still alive
I...I...I'm still alive
I...I...I'm still alive
I...I...I'm still alive
Is something wrong
She said
Of course there is
You're still alive
She said
Do I deserve to be
Is that the question
And if so,...if so...
Who answers?
Who answers?
I...I...I'm still alive
I...I...I'm still alive
I...I...I'm still alive
I...I'm still alive
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
It's been two years
And counting
Since they put her in this place
She's been diagnosed
By some stupid fuck
And mommy agrees
Why go home?
Why go home?
Why go home...
She seems to be stronger
But what they want her to be is weak
She could just pretend
She could play the game
She could be another clone
Why go home?
What you taught me
Don't come visit
Put me here
Mommy dear
Oooo, and all I taught her was everything
Oooo, I know she gave me all(?) that she wore
And now my bitter hands shake beneath the clouds of what was everything
All the pictures sent all been washed in black
...tattooed everything
I take a walk outside, I'm surrounded by some kids at play
I can feel their laughter, so why do I sear?
And twisted thoughts that spin round my head, I'm spinnin'
Oh I'm spinnin', how quick a sun can drop away
And now my bitter hands cradle broken glass of what was everything
All the pictures sent all been washed in black
...tattooed everything
All the love gone bad turned my world to black
Tattooed all I see, all that I am, all that I'll be yeaheah
Uhuh...uhuh...oooh
I know someday you'll have a beautiful life
I know you'll be the sun in somebody else's sky
But why, why, why can't it be... why can't it be mine?
Daddy didn't give attention
To the fact that mommy didn't care
King Jeremy the wicked
Ruled his world
Jeremy spoke in class today
Jeremy spoke in class today
Clearly I remember
Pickin' on the boy
Seemed a harmless little fuck
But we unleashed a lion
Gnashed his teeth
And bit the recess lady's breast
How could I forget
He hit me with a surprise left
My jaw left hurtin
Dropped wide open
Just like the day
Like the day I heard
Daddy didn't give affection
And the boy was something mommy wouldn't wear
King Jeremy the wicked
Ruled his world
Jeremy spoke in class today
Jeremy spoke in class today
Try to forget this...
Try to erase this...
From the blackboard.
You don't have to stray
Two oceans away
Waves roll in my thoughts
Hold tight the ring...
The sea will rise...
Please stand by the shore...
I will be...
I will be...
There once more...
You didn't leave a message
At least I could have
Heard your voice one last time.
Daily minefield
This could be my time
How 'bout you?
Would you hit me?
Would you hit me?
All the bills go by
And initiatives are taken up
By the middle
There ain't gonna be any middle any more
And the cross I'm bearing home
Ain't indicative of my place
Left the porch
Left the porch
Hear my name
Take a good look
This could be the day
Hold my hand
Walk beside me
I just need to say...
Hear my name
Take a good look
This could be the day
Hold my hand
Lie beside me
I just need to say
What can I take? (?)
I just want to be
I know that I would not ever touch you
Hold you
Feel you
Ever hold you
Never again
I don't question
Our existence
I just question
Our modern needs
I will walk... with my hands bound
I will walk... with my face blood
I will walk... with my shadow flag
Into your garden
Garden of stone
After all is done
We're still alone
I won't be taken
Yet I'll go...
With my hands bound
I will walk... with my face blood
I will walk... with my shadow flag
Into your garden
Garden of stone
I don't show...
I don't share...
I don't need
What you have to give...
On the edge
Know-nothin' town
Feelin' quite superior
The aged come
To the sky above
He just ain't nothin'
But he's got a great view...
On the edge of a
Christmas clean love
Young virgin from heaven
Visiting...
To the man above her
She just ain't nothin'...
She doesn't like the view
Doesn't like the view
Doesn't like the view...
But he sinks himself deep.
Can't touch the bottom
In too deep
Can't touch the bottom
Can't touch the bottom
In too deep
Can't touch the bottom
Can't touch the bottom
In too deep
Can't touch the bottom
Can't touch the bottom
Deep...
Oh dear Diane
Can you see me now
I am myself
Like you somehow
I'll ride the wave
Where it takes me
I'll hold the pain
Release me
Oh dear Diane
Can you see me now
I am myself
Like you somehow
I'll wait up in the dark
For you to speak to me
I'll open up
Release me
Release me
Release me
Release me